Category: Reflection
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Even the perfect
As the orchestra and choir sang it in its original language, the translation flashed on the screen. The most beautiful wither away. Even the most perfect die. I was there to enjoy a Brahms concert, just some music and I walked away with that line from an years-old poem, Nänie. The most beautiful wither away.…
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Like back-to-school shopping
Whenever back to school time came around, it was also time to go to the store. We needed new school clothes to fit our growing bodies. I loved trying on new clothes and coming out more and more fashionable. The fitting room was a place to play. Now, I dread it. All of these years…
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Back in focus
I’m sitting in a luxury hotel to celebrate myself. This week marks an anniversary. For four years I have been posting on this site daily. That makes 1,463 days. Today makes 1,464. When I noticed the milestone was coming up, I decided to go somewhere to mark the occasion in the most fitting way, doing…
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To go back in time
I wish I could travel back just a mere 12 hours, to start again. I wish I had spent this day better, more keenly directing every action towards my goals. But I haven’t. I did this thing and that thing, but not the thing. If I were to start the day again, here’s what I’d…
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Decide
“Don’t you have a method for that?” I was sitting in the kitchen, trying to contemplate my next move. Stuck in indecision, I waffled between continuing tasks at home versus the idea of heading out to a coffee shop. When he said that, I had to question myself, “Why am I making this choice so…
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What to learn from some of the biggest trends
What do maximalism, “hot divorcee summer,” and reality tv have to do with each other? Nothing if not a trend towards being seen. People are moving away from the chokehold of quiet luxury and towards living more colorful expressive lives. Women are developing their own standards of beauty in ways that decenter men, especially those…
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Think of me.
Think of me. Right now. Think of me, your future self, before you give up. Before you take back up that bad habit. Before choose to quit before you ever start. Think of me, when you’re struggling. When you think you’re doing everything right but everything is going wrong. When you don’t know if you…
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Worth it
I did something drastic. Something that doesn’t make sense. Something foolish. Something that I needed to do a long time ago. I paid for Sakara Life’s Summer Program. It was stupid expensive, but also perhaps exactly what I needed. It was a way of affirming a truth: I am worth the sacrifice. I was tired…
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Composting
He said it so beautifully, in a way that I won’t do justice. You have to let things die, so they can be compost for something more beautiful to grow. That failed venture, that relationship, that jobs, that plan. They weren’t useless. They weren’t wastes of time. They taught you something. They shifted your life…
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Use every tool
I told her what I was dealing with. It was a complaint about a job and how I was doing there. But instead of commiserating, she made a suggestion. Something just didn’t seem right. Maybe it was time I talked to someone. It was the kind of suggestion that initially might have made me feel…