Tag: confidence
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My biggest fear
I was in the gym yesterday and came in to contact with one of my biggest fears: There were multiple people with their cameras propped up on tripods and filming. Unsuspectingly, I could have just wandered into the background and ended up posted online forever. And then I’d be mocked in the comments as the…
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Scented and seen
Just a quick spritz in the crook of my elbow. And the other, and then here and there. But just as quickly as I come to enjoy my scent, the doubts start creeping in. “Was it too much? Will someone else notice my fragrance? I should try to tone it down.” As much as I…
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Spoke no evil
I sat on the plane trying to watch the movie. As Speak No Evil continued to play on my Delta seatback screen, I became more and more irritated with the protagonists. There were so many times they should have left the situation, fled the grasps of the mad man, but they didn’t. Instead, they just…
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Missed opportunity
I had a clear shot, but I didn’t take it. Served on a platter was an opportunity to displease someone, to finally face head on my tendency to people please. And yet, I stuttered. I stammered something instead of answering the question head on. Rather than being direct and done with it, I choice to…
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I’m sorry I wasted so much time.
I spent so long worrying about what you think of me. Foolishly, it never occurred to me that you never did. That is not to say that you didn’t say things about my appearance, bring up my failures, or try to make me feel small. You did all of those things and said all of…
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Seeking your disapproval
As a recovering people pleaser, I need to start living a life for me, rather than trying so hard to win people over, or get them to think highly of me, or try to get their approval at all. My resolution for 2025 is to disappoint more people. I need more people to disapprove…
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Challenge accepted
Last year, solidcore, a pilates inspired group class fitness studio, posted their solidays challenge. Complete 10 classes in 15 days to receive a free sweatshirt. At the time I saw the challenge, I did the calculation of what I was capable of and then started to draft an email to the company. I wrote that…
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You need some cookies, sort of
A few years ago, I was sucked into the David Goggins social media algorithm. If you are not familiar with the ex-navy Seal, he is known for his no excuses mentality. His wisdom is often spouted during distance runs or lifting sessions. He lives and breathes the lifestyle of moving past the limitations you place…
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Special, special snowflake
It was long used as a pejorative for millennials, but I’m going to claim it. I am a special snowflake. I don’t write that to say that I believe I deserve special treatment or participation trophies just for showing up. I am just over wishing I were like everyone else. Snowflakes form their unique patterns…
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I want to be like a banana
My bananas were overripened. It made me think I want to be like a banana. You add a banana to a smoothie, bam you know it’s there. There is no question as to whether or not it’s an ingredient in the mix. Banana bread. Definitely banana. You add banana to basically anything and it remains…