Tag: fear
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Stage presence
I am so comfortable as a stage hand, putting together details backstage to make a show run smoothly. But to be the show? That’s not me. I don’t know how this came to be, but I have to get on stage and be the one that everyone’s looking at. It’s not the public speaking, it’s…
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Scented and seen
Just a quick spritz in the crook of my elbow. And the other, and then here and there. But just as quickly as I come to enjoy my scent, the doubts start creeping in. “Was it too much? Will someone else notice my fragrance? I should try to tone it down.” As much as I…
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Missed opportunity
I had a clear shot, but I didn’t take it. Served on a platter was an opportunity to displease someone, to finally face head on my tendency to people please. And yet, I stuttered. I stammered something instead of answering the question head on. Rather than being direct and done with it, I choice to…
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Denmark on a whim
I went to Denmark on a whim. I’d heard fashion influencers speak about the place. And then there was Delta flight deal to Copenhagen. I was itching to experience more international travel, but I couldn’t get interest from others to come with me. Could I possibly go to overseas alone? People closest to me asked…
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“Do you admit to yourself how bad you want it?”
I have a can of Pringles next to me, scorchin’ sour cream & onion flavor. I have just been eating them, to round out the dinner that I hadn’t planned of odds and ends. Probably not the healthiest. Definitely not the healthiest. It’s odd, if you think about. For some time now, I have toyed…
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Finally admitting the real reason I don’t write to-do lists
I laid on the floor stretching and at ease, which left me vulnerable to the attack from that thought: What am I afraid of? I’ve been holding off on building towards the life that I want. Truthfully, that inaction is most evident in the ways I hold back from building the single days that I…