Tag: confidence
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Going off the grid
For some reason, you have lived your life looking outward for your source of energy. Across town, down the street, everywhere. You expected that someone out there would remain connected to you, supplying you with your source of light. And then the storm came. Then a squirrel nibbled a power line. And then, well you…
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My M.O.
I was honest. “I feel like I should cancel the trip and just stay home. I don’t know why I feel that way.” Quickly, she said, “Oh I know why. It’s because that’s your M.O.” It stung. My M.O. My modus operandi, or way of doing things. Over the course many of conversations, it became…
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Run your own race
I got up to the starting line, wearing basic gym clothes in a sea of coordinated sets. I took off walking while everyone else ran at a brisk pace. I went slowly, getting lapped, so many times. There were moments when I thought surely I should have dressed differently, I should have tried harder, I…
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You still lost
If I were to think about my current life approach as an athlete, taking on that that metaphor for my life, I would say that I lost the race. It wouldn’t be because I was ill prepared for lack of training. Nor would it be because I was bested by my fellow athletes. Not even…
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Walk inside
When I first learned that Louis Vuitton sold fragrances, I wanted to smell them for myself. I thought better of up and buying those expensive fragrances for just a quick sniff. I could just head into a store to smell them for free. While I walked around Aventura Mall, I finally had my chance. I…
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My biggest fear
I was in the gym yesterday and came in to contact with one of my biggest fears: There were multiple people with their cameras propped up on tripods and filming. Unsuspectingly, I could have just wandered into the background and ended up posted online forever. And then I’d be mocked in the comments as the…
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Scented and seen
Just a quick spritz in the crook of my elbow. And the other, and then here and there. But just as quickly as I come to enjoy my scent, the doubts start creeping in. “Was it too much? Will someone else notice my fragrance? I should try to tone it down.” As much as I…
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Spoke no evil
I sat on the plane trying to watch the movie. As Speak No Evil continued to play on my Delta seatback screen, I became more and more irritated with the protagonists. There were so many times they should have left the situation, fled the grasps of the mad man, but they didn’t. Instead, they just…
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Missed opportunity
I had a clear shot, but I didn’t take it. Served on a platter was an opportunity to displease someone, to finally face head on my tendency to people please. And yet, I stuttered. I stammered something instead of answering the question head on. Rather than being direct and done with it, I choice to…
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I’m sorry I wasted so much time.
I spent so long worrying about what you think of me. Foolishly, it never occurred to me that you never did. That is not to say that you didn’t say things about my appearance, bring up my failures, or try to make me feel small. You did all of those things and said all of…
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