Tag: self-talk
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Decluttering
There is a pile over there, haunting me, taunting me. It contains all of the papers that I told myself I would need to get through. Of course, there might be an important detail in there that I will need at an yet undisclosed point in time. I can’t let go of it, because I…
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My biggest fear
I was in the gym yesterday and came in to contact with one of my biggest fears: There were multiple people with their cameras propped up on tripods and filming. Unsuspectingly, I could have just wandered into the background and ended up posted online forever. And then I’d be mocked in the comments as the…
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Scented and seen
Just a quick spritz in the crook of my elbow. And the other, and then here and there. But just as quickly as I come to enjoy my scent, the doubts start creeping in. “Was it too much? Will someone else notice my fragrance? I should try to tone it down.” As much as I…
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I’m sorry I wasted so much time.
I spent so long worrying about what you think of me. Foolishly, it never occurred to me that you never did. That is not to say that you didn’t say things about my appearance, bring up my failures, or try to make me feel small. You did all of those things and said all of…
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You need some cookies, sort of
A few years ago, I was sucked into the David Goggins social media algorithm. If you are not familiar with the ex-navy Seal, he is known for his no excuses mentality. His wisdom is often spouted during distance runs or lifting sessions. He lives and breathes the lifestyle of moving past the limitations you place…
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yet another restart
“I’m tired of this. How many times am I going to start over?” And then a small voice answered, “As many days as you are alive.” While I was/am frustrated with myself for having to start yet another challenge to make progress towards my goals, I have a new perspective. It is such a beautiful…
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I want to be like a banana
My bananas were overripened. It made me think I want to be like a banana. You add a banana to a smoothie, bam you know it’s there. There is no question as to whether or not it’s an ingredient in the mix. Banana bread. Definitely banana. You add banana to basically anything and it remains…
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I am a great storyteller
I was doomed at work because I had made mistakes, that I would continue to make, and would be found out for not being qualified. And then ultimately, I would be let go. Or at least that is the story I had been telling myself. I had constructed the story, with the inspiration of minor…
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Maintain your light
“Don’t dim your light just to avoid dealing with someone else.” It was a conversation about a workplace issue and how I handled it, but it became much more profound than just a critique of how I go about my job. I immediately expanded and poeticized the saying in my head. “Don’t dim your light…
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That was a good challenge
Sometimes you take challenges that have you thinking was, “This might be my dumbest idea ever,” because it pushes you so far outside of your comfort zone that you can’t help but question your intelligence for having taken the leap. And then when you do reach your goal, you’re amazed at your capabilities and proud…