Just a quick spritz in the crook of my elbow. And the other, and then here and there. But just as quickly as I come to enjoy my scent, the doubts start creeping in. “Was it too much? Will someone else notice my fragrance? I should try to tone it down.”
As much as I have come to enjoy the practice of applying fragrance, it seems that I have also learned to try and hide how I smell. There is a tension between wanting to smell good and not wanting to be smelled at all. In trying so hard to avoid offending people with scents, I also avoid delighting them with beauty, and delighting myself. Perhaps I never offend, but I also never bring joy while I try so hard to hide away.
Of course, this goes beyond fragrance. There are too many times that I let the fear of being perceived prevent me from ever really being seen.
I wish that I could unapologetically show up as I am and fully wish to be more often. It is an ongoing journey to get there. Maybe, as I let myself become more comfortable letting myself be scented I will let myself be seen.
How do you let yourself be bold and fully beautiful, despite what others might say? How do allow yourself to bring beauty in this world despite all its challenges?
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