A Wren Says

I have a can of Pringles next to me, scorchin’ sour cream & onion flavor. I have just been eating them, to round out the dinner that I hadn’t planned of odds and ends. Probably not the healthiest. Definitely not the healthiest. It’s odd, if you think about. For some time now, I have toyed with the idea of taking strides to seriously improve my health, but I haven’t committed to it. It is like it doesn’t really mean that much to me.  I haven’t taken the steps, I haven’t put the processes in place. Do I even want to improve?

I think it is more that I don’t want to admit that I want to change because of how difficult it is. I don’t want to admit how much I want things to be different because I might not be successful. It seems so much easier to act as if it means nothing to me, until it’s not. I wasted so much time by tricking myself into believing that I’m not wasting time at all. If my goals aren’t important, it doesn’t matter if I don’t work towards them.

Do you do this to yourself? Do you pretend your goals are that important, as a way of thinly veiling your fear of either effort or failure? Do you admit to yourself how bad you want it? Maybe you can also take some time to reconsider your goals for yourself and why you aren’t working towards them.

If you are interested, I started thinking about this after watching the Louis Vuitton Spring/Summer 24 menswear show. You can see the starting clip, The Pupil King, featuring Jerrod Carmichael and Henry Taylor here:

Or you can just read the transcript here:

Carmichael: Do you admit to yourself how bad you want it? Like do you, do you? ‘cause sometimes I’ll make excuses. Sometimes I’ll go like, I’ll be a little shy about it. A little bashful. Sometimes I don’t say like truly how badly I want it. I don’t want to admit to myself how badly like. You know.

Taylor: Hmmm

Carmichael: You know what I’m saying? Do you think? Do you feel that way? Do you feel like you, like you can say, like, whatever the goal is, whatever the thing is, that you can admit how much you want it? Like how, how much it means to you?

Taylor: You know what they say? Actions speak louder than words. You know what I mean? I don’t mean to be cliché. It just shows you like, what did I sacrifice to do this? I wasn’t from nothing. I wasn’t even any good. It was like saying, like, a walk on. I didn’t even get drafted. But I’m gonna go out here. And Imma  keep doing it. And Imma  keep doing it. Sometimes you ain’t got a choice. You know what I’m saying?