A Wren Says

Recently I thought about all of the people full of potential we have lost too soon. All of the people who still haven’t made their mark. How I still haven’t made mine.

I considered the amount of anxiety I have when it comes to putting myself out there. The amount of fear I feel is ridiculously disproportionate to the actual risks. There are people experiencing far worse yet are doing so much more.

Yet I can still find myself huddled in my protective ball, hiding the most vulnerable parts of me.

I know my time is short; my potential is great; my fears are unfounded.

I know what I want and need to do but choose not to do those things. I sit motionless in front of my computer screen. So many jobs unapplied for, opportunities unseized. I guess there is this balancing equation happening.

There is a lot of weight in the “I want” basket,” but maybe it’s too light and no match in comparison to the weight of my concerns. I guess it’s a situation where I need to find a way to balance the scales.

Maybe my fears need to be reexamined. Are they that bad? If I were to think it through, list out exactly what I fear in the situation, then I could ask myself how heavy it feels. And maybe my fears stay the same but I could focus on adding to the want basket. Is there anything else that could go in there to tip the scale?